Passion...Put aside

I was leaving WalMart tonight after a quick run to find just the right head attire for the Kentucky Derby party I am attending this weekend (can't wait to share pics of hats with you) and as I stopped at the light before turning right, I looked left and a very inspiring sunset shouted at me. The problem? I had a rider in the car with me. I have this terrible need to not be a bother to others and therefore I let my passions go by the wayside in order to not disturb ....their goals for the day, the eve...the whenever.

I'm taking this photography class online right now. I took a trip up north with my beau to his property this past weekend and was so anxious and excited to possibly be able to utilize some of what I was learning to capture what I needed for a couple of the homework assignments. The weather, of course, was not too cooperative but we were able to venture out in the misty rain on Sunday to a river rapid area park for just a bit. We had two other couples with us...one of which was doing the driving...another a bit hung over from whatever he enjoyed the night before. I had my camera...opted to leave my wide angle in the truck as this was a place we visited last year but one I hadn't necessarily oo'd and aa'd over plus it was misting and I didn't have my photo vest on so I was worried about dropping a spare lense...plus...again...I didn't want to slow people down...be in their way....make people feel they had to wait for me..........and today...oh how I am disappointed that I didn't have my wide angle, that I didn't take more time to photograph what turned out to be an absolutely awesome rapid, waterfall area.

It is something I have to get over....the putting my passions aside for others...within reason of course.
It is something I have to start planning 'my time' for. Ever since we left there...I've been planning in my head time to go back...alone....just me and my 'looking glass' to capture what I didn't capture the first time.

And so...on a daily basis....I am greeted each morning on my way to work with a sunrise that I don't have time to stop and shoot and, therefore, I am learning to shoot while driving (something I don't recommend you 'try at home')....which is also....what I had to do tonight with the sunset that I really didn't capture at it's fullest because instead of pulling over and shooting it 'then'....I slowed down on the ramp to get on the highway since no one was behind me and took the shot...in haste....there.

.....which leaves me just to continue wishing....I could afford to leave my job to satisfy this much needed creative craving of mine.

(river rapid pics to come later as I need to use a couple for homework assignments and don't want to share them elsewhere until then.)